True Love....

In the olden days, where our mum and dad grew up in.. they truely believe in true love and some in fated love.. once the woman has married over to the man, she had to work for him for life without any complains..

In this new era, things change.. mre and mre people believe that fate is in their hands an which they can manipulate with.. True love and fated love are no longer believe, it have been banish forever and ever in this era..

I myself is very skeptical about boy girl relationship.. I have seen many and experience a lot.. it hurts me a lot when a relationship didnt work it out well..its like a knife piercing through my heart.. I hate that.. i really hate that feeling.. But during each relationship, I have learn to be stronger and learn to manipulate it.. after all it is true love is just a game.. If you play with it, play along and win each level.. till to utmost where you achieve the key to marriage... thats where the start of the big gamble.. as for me I not really a good player, just an average.. I eventually will still lost out.. as I get too emotion easily....
I have a few close girlfriends around me who are also a gamer in this field.. some got to the big gamble, some lost out and having to pay the long life debt ( hving a child)... some still cruising on the level... for me I just cant be any of the player above.. I hardly could believe in love.. no matter how sweet the other half is.. i feel that I still have to be aware.. Because I hate the feeling of begin hurt.. the sharp pain I have.. that pierce through my heart...It really hurts ...
Many told me this is only the beginning and there will be more to come and soon you be immune to it.. Who knows you might one day got into the big gamble.. maybe you be cashing out a lot.. Well as for me.. who cares.. abt that.. nobody.. all they want is nothing making out of nothing..
Sigh.. my heart hurts again.. when I type this.. but thinking back the life I once have not having to take part in the boy girl relationship game.. I am much much happier..