Common Girl!!! Wake UP!!

That's a good headline to start with.. trying to remind myself to be strong and stay on the light of positive....

It have been the 3rd week that I am out of job, since after I was back fired by the sly cunning old fox. If not of him, I would not have rush into leaving... I have yet to find a job.. partly because I wanted to catch up my breathe where the past one year , I have been running breathless on this job. Secondly, I guess is time for me to have sometime to myself where I am still single, no commitments or responsible to think over again what I want for my life. Look bact at the past four years of my working life, I have been like a lttle lost sheep banging into each open door I saw but none of them really suit me, but I do gain the experience from it. As I took a further step back into my younger days looking at the stuff I did, I always have been doing arts and writing. At the age of 13, I wrote a book and its called "My childhood nightmare.." its a very sad sad story.. but cant be helped I am alwys that sad.. I let one of my favourite teacher to read my book.. and she encouarge me to write more so that one day I will be a famous writer... So what happen? Guess I am a sadist which allow words from my close one to hurt me and bring me down eventually decided to give up writing.

But strangely after 4years, writing and drawing start to rekindle in my heart. There is a strange force that kept pushing me to walk into the light of passion.

Sometimes there were days, I asked myself should I follow my passion or should I fac the cruel working world. And there were the nights, I am so confident that I make the right choice, just do what the heart tells you.

Guess adding up all the days and nights, I still can't give myself a clear direction. Should I or should I not?

Neverthless, I will still keep writing, thats the only way it keeps me going but I am sure with the new 2006.. I will have a better grip in my life!

Cheers!!!