Long Long time

Have been a month I have not been blogging... well cant really come out a good reason why.. I wanted to come in and blog.. but each time I am in.. my mind jst went blank.. guess this is the first sympton to show how stress you are :)..

Well about work, it starting to become a nightmare for me.. I hardly could fall asleep and when I do.. I will be dreaming about delays.. wrong data key in the FC.. and many more.. once I even break into cold sweat and wanted to scream but ended up coughing.. thats how badly I was..
I guess this mst be part of working life.. sigh..

Recently, I have been thinking of someone.. someone is someone that have been lingering in my mind for over 3 years.. It has been 3years and I do not understand why.. why each time as I close my eyes to sleep, I will see his face.. I kept asking myself.. why do my mind kept flashing back the memories I have with him.. this is similar and what happen to A.. Thk god I manage to find back A and ask for his forgiveness.. and now it is him.. But why? I do not understand. .. I kept thinking about his goodness.. why why?? Can somebody explain to me? What harm have I done to him? I do not knw..

Life comes and goess.. the more I long for stability the further it goes.. no matter how hard I try .. i jst miss it.. Sigh..

There are so many things in my mind.. they seem to be so near yet so far.. and how shld I conquered all.. I ask..Mind jst all fill up with qns here and there.. what should I do ?/

Any way with all the above ranting.. wld love to share with you.. there is one mre new thing coming into my life and I have been waiting for all my life since the day when I took up the challenge completing the Mac Ritche run and came in 3rd.. I have took up the Shape run06, I signed up for the catogery of 5km run.. This is the greatest challenge that I have done so far.. do you guys it might meant nothing.. but to me it meant a lot.. its like a small girl trying to complete her dream.. part of it...

Hence now I doing more cardio training and taking more supplement to make myself grow.. Now I have exactly a month to go before the race start.. and trying hard to shake of this huge mass in my body.. thus to run faster.. but then during the midst of my training, my old knee problem has come back to haunt me.. Neverthless.. I still pursue the goal to win the 5km.. jst treat it as no pain no gain.. :)

Ok thats all I have to share..
Love you guys..