Hate THIS feeling

Sob Sob.. Tears kept running down in my heart..

The sharp pain that comes and go is getting worse..

My breathing becomes heavier and heavier..

I hate this.. HATE it so much..

The more I tried to pull closer, the more it kept pushing me away..

why.. why.. why..

why do this force want to repel XX..

why can't be closer to XX??

why oh why..

with these why.. I knw that XX not the....

Let it go.. just let it...

Let buried it.. buried it...

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