Age 25- Is that another turning pt of my life?

Remember when I was 13years old, that year was critical to me as it determine life and death. Thank god, He came into my life and save me. From that day, that year it became my first turning point of my life.

My great changes during that year was tremendous. I disciplined myself to study for at least four hours and even drew out my own time table on what subject to touch on for the day. I spent my hours wisely and removed the need to watch drama series that was hot on the TV. Soon later, my result has prove to others that I AM NOT STUPID.. and every year I manage to get scholarship from the government.

My teenage life went well.. didnt went astrayed even though I alwys hang out with a group of drug addict.. ah lians.. even in gang. I was really determined to get my life straight and proved to M that I am not as bad as she alwys think I am..

But I guess.. and didnt notice that.. my life is going down slope.. when I started working out.. There wasnt much trouble in finding a job soon after I graduate.. and also no trouble for me to job from one job to another. I have taken my life lightly.. and started drinking and clubbing as much as want..

shop till I drop.. play till I drop was my my motto..

I guess I should have saw the red alert but I chose to annoy and continue my life as dun worry that lot of cash outside.. and beside that it will nvr be a problem for me to find another job..

Finally.... CRASH!!! I fall real hard on the field that filled with weeds.. It hurts.. and my whole body was bruised and wounded... and when I gain back my conscious.. I still refused to face the fact that I going to be hit badly.. I still continue to live a life that I believed..

I would said my pride was high.. my face was as thick as cow skin... and I refused to let myself down..

Month passes by.. the need of $$ was there.. and fear start creeping into me.. I started spending my time in St Andrew Church.. praying for God's mercy for me.. I was scared.. I felt so alone and cold.. Insomina also started visiting me night after night...

Then one night.. I realised something.. I have learned a value lesson...
: I am a damn bitch who refused to live a humble life.
I am a damn bitch who refused to believe that you pay what you work
I am a damn bitch who believe in striking rich fast...
and the next day, I went to church and so happen that have this sermon on The purpose driven.. something in this sermon struck me.. "To be on the top.. is not an overnight thing.. it is through humble and years to be there... " yeah I agree.. and all this while I was stupid.. alwys believe that I be lucky all the time...

Guess what this year is not going to be lucky for me .. but definitely it is going to be my turning pt of life.. definitely..

I will alwys keep this in mind:

"Expect trouble as an inevitable part of life, and when it comes, hold your head high. Look it squarely in the eye, and say, "I will be bigger than you. You cannot defeat me."

Now I going to give myself 5years.. this 5years gonna be a good one.. as I not going to forget this day.. how I got myself in this deep shit!!!