Drink Drank Drunk.. Damn Drunk!!!!!!!!

Yst.. supposed to meet D.. but then D cldn't meet up bcos D need to work OT.. so therefore cancel... I was damned SAD... emotionally I feel like breaking down.. Like I said before I dont really understand D well and no idea what is D thinking abt.. sad sob sob..

So decided to drown my sadness somewhere.. so again my urge to Drink Drank Drunk.. and this time round really get myself drunk.. The usual me who nvr enjoy drinking Martini and Gin.. drank a lot of that.. many many.. to get myself drunk.. the feeling was good.. at first .. but till the last part when I want to puke but I cant puke.. that is how shit I feel..

At that point when I was high.. i start to recall my life as young as * till now @$.. (hee try break the code)... I nver have easy childhood.. and my most darkest secret (for almst 17yrs) is still yet to let out.. eventually yst when I txt my close gf C.. she called me immediately.. and I told her..
I dun knw why.. but i jst want to let it out.. its haunting me..

You know what sometimes I wish that I meet a car accident .. so that part of my bad memories will be rammed over... and start over a new life... I wish for that.. sigh.. Its wrong to think like this.. how can I again stand up to fight with it.. sigh..

Now I am awake.. but hving the hangover effect.. damn bad.. feel sucks now..
Now jst want to stop drinking.. FOR A WK.. or more.. the taste is terrible... right now in my stomach........