Missing HIM!

I misses his gentleness.. his soft eyes that would melt you down like an ice cream after it placed outside the hot sun for a minute.. his heavenly smile that lock you between his body and soul...

I misses him very much.. Many times, I wanted to go and visit him.. but whenever I was about to reach his doorstep.. my hands would be shaking and mind just kept yelling me to go back home.. you are too ashame to see him..
It is true.. I am too ashame to see him.. I know he will forgive me no matter what happen.. but the guilt in me kept saying no.. dun go... what more harm do you want to bring to him...

I misses that day, when he held my hand and let me down to the bank of stream and out of mystic forest..

Can't continue anymore.. as my heart is aching now.. it hurts.. it hurts very much.. I miss HIM.. I do.. I want HIM back.. I must let go .. I know I must.. But how...