Second Blog For 2006

Guess what.. my this new year resolution is.. well its not abt look, health or even fighting to get a bigger boo than Fiona Xie.. but to get rid the ulgier side of me.. where its all bottle with anger and bitterness.. I get need to get this system out of me... as it is giving me a big time fucking problem.. I hve become mre and mre impatient with people.. people whom I dun knw.. where they bump on to your bag while squeezing through the crowded place.. where they cut your queue without signalling.. and I get real pissed off with them.. and all my fucking words will be out on them.. Damn it, I seem not be bothered whether they will hear it or not.. I jst said it ALOUD... "YOU BITCH.. or sometimes YOU BASTARD.." well this is the uliger side of me.. damn rude man...

Mmm the nxt thing I want to share is.. I met this wonderful lady at the gym that I always hang out.. wow.. this lady she has a washboard.. and I myself is working damn hard everyday aiming to get washboard.. so that I can stop admiring people and let people admiring me and envy the great figure I have.. (Yah one little thing.. I realised my boo went smaller.. damn it .. I guess the fats now have converted into muscles)... Anyway.. back to this lady.. she is liked me jst left her job after working 1year plus in a bank.. reason left is the same as mind..MANAGEMENT SUCK!.. and she is exactly also not working for approx. 2mths.. BUT.. she is smart woman.. she is making full use of her time doing stuff .. like networking.. venturing into business.. and damn it look at her.. she is making use every hr every second to make it worth while.. and me .. Feel sucks.. I basically sit down at the computer.. venting all my anger on this blog.. I wonder what great use I have done.. NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!

I love to think.. and I think big.. but putting in action plan.. oh man I am damn poor.. not too sure how should I go abt doing.. and for now what I can think for is.. find a damn fucking job that gives me a good $$$$ salary so that I can save up.. and invest in my dream... Well I guess I am back into square one.. sigh why do I hve to do things twice.. damn it.. why.. maybe I jst fucking idoit who has a problem of short sighted...

Angry as I can be.. but what is the good use of begin angry.. arrgh.. I don't understand..

Maybe I should stop blogging this type of stuff.. and carry on my life thinking positive.. but I find it hard and tough...

Everyday without hving a job is damn scary... fear alwys puts me down all the time.. DAMN IT...
why shld I like fear to this to me..

LET IT GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have to .. I have to...... arrgh....

where is the croughing dragon and hidden tiger in me...

Damn it...