Mariah Carey- The Diva

Hey yesterday.. despite the fact that I am real broke and left a few hundred dollars in my bank.. I still went round the CDs shop to look for Mariah Carey's CD.. I don't know why but having the urge to hear her voice again...

I like her songs very much as some of them are compose by her and the lyrics will always be filled with her emotion, feelings and even meaning. Definitely I wont forget that terrible years that she has been through.. where she faces divorce.. a few break up.. despite her image as slutty..or maybe bitchy.. but she is a woman will only fall in love for one..

Well back to my day yesterday.. so I started off walking through Bugis Junction.. looking for her CDs.. guess what since after that Grammy award.. the price to pay her CDs shot up.. oh man.. damn ex abt $20 plus... but I was looking at below $10.. Nah I didn't buy from there.. so I move on to Bugis Village.. wow I am damn lucky man.. there is this stall selling it as 9.90 with come with a biography that talk abt HER! Of course lah.. I straight away took out my $10 and bought it.. No regrets man..

Since when I was 9yrs old, that was the first time I am in touch of English music.. and I rember the first song that heard was "All out of love", by Air Supply.. and soon later I started to fall in love with English music and start tuning my radio to FM98.7... and that was where I started to fall in love with Mariah Carey.. Celine Dion and many others..

But I still find that Mariah Carey still suit the title of Diva.. why I said that because I saluate to her great voice.. figure and even her life.. I remember at the recent Grammy award.. she said this:" Thank god.. that He came into my life. I am able to stand here is because of him.."
Yeah I fully agree..

Actually my life and Mariah Carey's life have similarities.. such as :
* we didnt really have good childhood..
* we worked hard to keep our family alive..
* we matured too fast for our age..
* we are suckers for relationship..
* we love butterflies..
* we yearn for happy ending..
* we look bitchy... but we don't flirt..
See really we have lots of similarites.. and her turning point of life is soon after she hit badly with her marriage.. and kept pushing herself.. working hard to fill up her sadness.. where eventually finally in 2001 she nearly broke down.. the finally cause when her father died of cancer.. where media started to hightlight her life.. where she has mentally and physically breakdown..

And now look at her.. coming back as one good DIVA.. see thats what I am impressed about her.. she has gone through so many turblence and still manage to stand tall.. why can't I do that too?

Look back in my life.. I think my down is not worse than her.. I have no marriage downs to worry.. but I am really sucker for relationship... I just wanna to find a guy who I can rest on when I am tired.. I just want a happy ending.. why is this so hard for me..

Has all the good guys out there being taken up? Sigh..
Sorry to say that.. yesterday night.. before I could sleep soundly.. I have been thinking.. :
* why doesnt D say the 3 words to me? or he is too scare?
* i saw D first gf.. and i realise that I do share similarities with her.. I wonder am I the substitue?
* why dosent D miss me?
* why.. why.. why.. ?
Oh gosh.. see I am worrying for nothing.. I should stop that.. but I guess is hard.. sigh..
Anyway a few mre days to go.. I will be starting my course.. hopefully I am detached from D!!