Drowning in my own dream

been long time..
so long that i cant even remember it anymore..

I frozen part of my dream and part of my me is locked there too..
I kept running round in circles.. and not able to get out the dream maze i constructed for myself.

I fallen so deep that even when i am awake i still feel part myself in it..
part of me so afraid to be awake.. and fear to lose it..

the dream i have with you is so clear like crystal clear that i even believe that we were meant to be together..
i am not obsessive but is the dream that kept repeating itself.. to and fro..

the white wedding dress..
the white church..
the bed of white petals lying nicely on the walking lane..
you were there.. in your white suit.. smiling at me...
but as i get closer the further i was from you..
and you still standing there.. smiling happy..
for what reason are u so happy.. when i couldnt get close to u...