Y am I doin this to myself?

Waking up feeling heartbroken again and I guess this week is goin to be a tough week for me..
even though I have to work for four days only...

It is the midweek and still feeling broken..

I am lost and no idea what I should do?

H can you tell me what are you thinking of?
Tell me please.. I am goin crazy everytime I think about it..

I misses you so much.. my whole life is slowing down and soon it will come to stand still.. w/o next to me.. I just feel so difficult..

O Lord.. hear my cry and lead me to him ...