Watch out.. I am Back!!

Oh gosh.. com'on everyone lets laugh it out.. didnt mean to stress you with my blog.. Didnt mean that it will bring down your mood man..

I am feeling better now and have been going gym regular to stress out my sweat.. so I would feel better.. Now I have more things to worry.. and this time round I going to make it happen.. No one can help you if I myself dont start helping myself.. dont u think so.. So everybody let's do the wave.. Up ... and .. down.. yahoo!!
Oh rite! Everybody let's move with.. 1 n 2 n 123 go.. shake shake.. shake your hip.. and then shake your head... let's do it together..dont be shy.. no one in the office will notice that.. let's shake your hand.. now put your hand up in the sky and put it down.. so are you now all warm up?? I can't hear you.. are you warm up now?? YES!!! Oh goody.. lets shake more.. shake out all your worries and stress.. yippe..

Hope this little shaking makes you guys feel better.. Take care everyone.. Love you

Another Lonely Night...........................***

Sigh** is another lonely night.. where I have no one to talk to but Mr Moon.. I have been talking to him since I was eight years old. I remembered very clearly, every night I will be turning and tossing away on my bed.. as I be thinking of unpleasant things that happened. Each night I will be sitting up right on my bed looking out of the window... and what soften my heart was the beaming light he gave out and this made me feel secure ... He will be hanging high up in the dark sky with his glowing face while most of its sparkles friends will be surrounding him... I will be there ponder to him all my worries.. my sadness and even my happniess to him as I have no one to share with.. Sigh** maybe I am born to be a lone ranger.. maybe not.. I don't know.. and I also do remember that whatever grudges I have and bear, I will cry it out in the night, where no one could hear except Mr Moon..
When the night is dark, I feel that I am standing alone.. with no love.. no life in me.. I am just like a pale sheet hanging on the clothes line, trying to absorb the moon energy as to fill me up for tomorrow.. I really wish and did pray that.. I have someone that is beside me that could share this lonely night I have.. and so it won't be that lonely..
Till Today, I still love my Mr Moon.. he is the only "person" that have been keeping accompany and have never left me .. when I need him badly...

Great Responses

Oh gosh.. ha ha I have no idea that previous blog that I wrote got such a great impact on people I love. Well firstly is my cousin Y and then my close gf C.. sigh what can I say? Every body have their strong point and weakpoint. .. thus only through this blog I can show others what are my weak point. Hence when I am standing in front of a crowd I have to show my strong point.. only through that you find comfort in you.

Today.. is really a bad day for me.. especially at my work. Well I am just a OE (Operation Executive) what do you expect me to do.. I am just like everyone sitting here to help people to get their things done and whatever going to happen up front is not going to be my business.. But people do take things for granted an can be a real selfish pig.. thinking of themselves only... and start getting high and making my life diffcult. I find it getting harder and harder everyday. People are giving more and more of their shit problem by refusing to do things that required them to do. I can't do my job if everyday I have to face human problems as my obstacles.. What they say I must listen and expect me to take immediate action.. that is shit.. and I wont do it..
What I can say is I have enough!!

Arrgh.. I need air here.. and could someone kindly bring in 10 huge tanks of oxygen for me.. I can feel that I am going turn blue..

Help!!!!

No idea...

I have stop writing for a while, basically is because I have nothing to write. Nothing comes into my head, my mind is blank and my life is greyish but I won't said its dead. At this point, I don't understand why my whole body is feeling numb for the whole week. I can't perform the usual 100% of me. Sigh** I can't even pick myself up to go to gym in the morning.. I kept giving myself excuses that I need rest and I will do it tomorrow.. but when tomorrow came.. I again push it away till this sunday.. Wow!! I have break the record of not going to gym for a week.. What a great record!

Sigh** Beside breaking that record, I have broke another record.. I nearly went drinking for a week.. me was having this urge to drink .. not drink for enough but drink to get myself high. I don't know why I do this, but my heart is right now feeling empty, feeling lonely.. just like air supply song, All out of love.. Moday I went to Harry bar for a drink. I sat at one corner drinking quietly while trying to concentrate on my book that I have started off writing.. sad to say I can't think of anything thus I finished my beer and I went over to my favourite place Balacava and hoping to find some familiar faces.. Too bad the usual people were not there but except the usual bartender, I again have a few drink before I decided to head back home. On Tues, it was my off and I again went to New Asia Bar for a drink as they are having happy hour from 3pm-9pm.. On wed.. I went to clarke quay and drank a few liquor and wine.. On thurs same thing happen, and drank the same thing that I have on wed.. and finally on FRI came.. i started feeling very strange.. My energy is totally drain off.. feeling weak.. and sometime I do feel giddy. I really do not know what is happening to me.. I can't believe that this is happening to me.. first time in my life I felt so weak physically and mentally. Seriously, I do not know why I am feeling like this. Even typing this blog I took almost an hour and a half to complete it.. this is pretty long. Sigh I hope the next week .. I be fine and recuperating..