Dreams.. my Strange dream..

Dreams continue to be a big part of my life today.

Yesterday night, I have a very weird dream..

I dreamt that I was on a half day leave due to the fact I was really sick.. I wanted to cross the busy road to get to other side to catch a bus home.. but then both of my feet was numbed and couldnt move at all.. each time as the road was cleared, I tried to cross.. but my leg just couldn't help me.. Soon after a few attempt.. my leg start to move freely, thus I took this opportunity to run across.. jst then in the middle way through.. my leg started to feel numb again.. oh gosh.. Worst still there were two buses coming at my direction.. I kept telling myself.. 'Run quick Regina.. Run.." I miss the first bus.. but not for the second one.. but then..soon when I awoke .. I was in another place.. lying on a double decker bed that made of woods.. and saw the window hanging two beautiful sunflowers but in the middle was an attached of flower..
When I awoke, I started to feel my leg to ensure they are not numbed.. yeah they werent.. BUT.. I saw red spots all over my pair of legs.. started from my thigh and run down all the way to my ankle.. it really freak me out.. and infront of the double decker.. I saw a Chinese doc lady talking to this 100kg man.. who seem to have some illness too.. The Chinese doc lady.. was telling him to take this .. and that.. and on the table it lay differnt types of fruits.. I felt strange and decided to walk down.. and the chinese doc and the 100kg guy seem to be busy and didnt took any notice.. so when I stepped out of my room.. I saw my mum.. and she took was taking similar medication that the chinese doc was recommending.. I walked up to her and started complaining abt the red spots found on my leg.. and then.. I woke up!

Isnt it strange.. but wat really caught my eye was the two stalk of sunflowers with the purple flower in the middle.. what is that.. i wonder.. but then to interpret this I must.. read up on all the symbols that i see in my dream.. as to give a bigger pic.. sigh..


"It is likely that you have been having some unusual ones lately, and you can't help but wonder about their significance. You may be fascinated by what you discover. And remember: dream interpretation is an art, not a science. Do your research to get a general idea about the meanings of things rather than trying to do a direct interpretation. "

Getting Stronger..

Despite all the tired days dragging myself to work.. calling, chasing, meetings.. I still able to stand up and remind myself.. "Regina, you still have another part of you..another part of you that waiting for you to revive it.. "

Constant reminders and constant self talking doesnt motivate me much enough into getting the other part of me.. Till then when I check my bank acct and over the years the huge load of money that going down to zero.."Shit!! is all I could say.. " I just cant stand myself.. from zeros to none .. thats what I becoming... That's really freak me out.. !! I want none of it.. not going to play that role is poor bitch.. Something have to be done!

Fear, rejection is what I could think about everyday.. looking and finding another part of you, afterall is not that easy.. Sometimes, ppl are lucky they knw their calling and be what they want.. but ppl for us are not.. we have vivid pics of what we want .. but then fear comes in.. and next rejection.. why is that so.. bcos we think high and mighty of ourselves.. thus failure is unacceptable to us!

But now.. things are changing, why fear.. why wait.. not going to allow this negative thoughts to embrace me..

And now I reach a turning point, and an old fear suddenly loses its grip on me. All that work I've been doing has paid off, and my insecurities suddenly seem less all-encompassing than they once did.

Well done Regina.. be Ahead.. be daring!