Just ME- RG

Mmm.. well I want to further add on to what I have written yesterday regards about FREEDOM.. and these are the rules that I came up with : - which means its my rule and its JUST ME...

F= free to talk and voice out anything you see
R= Regretful is not in my dictionary,
Responsible is the key to your ownself.
E= Eat and drink while you can, LIFE is SHORT!
E= Evaluate yourself all the time as to become a better person
D= Dare to dream!
O= Open up to opportunities that lead you to your dream!
M= Me.. is all I need to care about.. listen to me, myself.. but not OTHERS!!!

The above are the newly invented rules.. Well you guys out there can create your own one too..
It act like a gentle reminder for me.. to remind me..NOT TO WASTE another second IN MY LIFE... GO out and GET IT!!!!! Yahoo....

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Well feeling better now.. I have a few calls from the job agency.. guess what.. I might going back in the field as Byer.. which I have nvr like.. Damn it.. but no choice.. Living here in Singapore.. you need the damn cash $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$... and without that.. you rot like hell...

At this point, I feel suck.. like a failure.. talking big in achieving my dream.. but again set myself back in the rat race.. DAMN IT.. but nvr mind.. this is not GOING to PUSH ME DOWN..... I gonna draw up another plan.. a plan that will definitely lead me closer to my dream...

I am so glad that.. I hve the chance to explore blogging... at least I feel better each time I blog.. enjoy every moment while I type out each letters.. Mmm and all this is bcos of my wonderful cousin Y.. thank you lah.. if you are still reading my blog.. :)

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This is Sunday.. is gonna to be an uneasy day for me.. its my turn to M.T.P session.. well not going to spell out what it stands for.. but definitely something nerve wrecking.. Arrgh.. Burp! I really have no idea what I should do ...

But I have imagine myself.. :
RG sitting down at the table like a vase.. smile like an idoit.. ears are shut... but smile wont wear off.. jst like putting on a long lasting lipstick... and maybe the worst part.. my face will fall flat onto the plate..

Oh gosh.. I want to be myself.. but what so good abt myself in the first place? --- I am refering to my education level... I jst a POLY GRAD.. n they are lawyers and definitely having higher degree of knowledge than I do... Oh NO!!! Gonna make a fool out of myself...

Anyway.. I should stop here.. going further will just ruin my thinking.. :)

Oh yeah good news to share.. I going to surprise my Bibile study friends.. I going for the class this sat.. I miss them a lot.. and yst I couldn't stop thinking about them.. and just want to give them my big HUGS!!!! and the following day... Sunday... is the first step of this year back to my church.. I miss HIM a lot.. I want HIS hugs too...
I have clear away some of the -ve thoughts in me.. I have to be responsible abt my life.. so you gonna start within yourself... ;)

Ok lah.. Mst be a real long entry man... Hee hee

Tiring Day...

Oh gosh.. finally now I got the chance to sit down in front of computer and start doing all my nonsence.. such as gossiping online with my friends.. reading up other ppl's blog... checking out my junk mail and etc...

Today is real tiring day.. I have been out since morning.. firstly I tried to organise my time to match my gf's one.. as she has an interview in the morning and later we went round International Plaza.. to do our job hunting... We started from the highest floor and down to the lowest to send in our hard copy resume.. but then I guess we are a bit outdated lah.. almost half the job agency just gave us name card and told us to send our soft copy via email.. and the rest we have sit down and really fill up those employment form...

There is one encounter that really shoot me down...
V: Hi RG, so you are looking for permanent job... huh preferably which area are you looking at?
RG: I looking mostly into Mgkt Com.. PR... Byr... or Ops...
V: Looking at your resume, I find that it is not attractive.. it seem that you love to job hop...
(RG gave her a big smile, but heart was fumming with fire... )
---- well I dont see anything wrong in changing job.. well I would said that I am young and definitely we have to test water and see where we stand in and what we excel in.. sometimes I find that living here in Singapore is damn complicated...
Now a days, many advertisment and media strongly encourage us to look for enjoyment in things we do.. and no longer about working for the sick of working... thus in order to search for jobs that we really enjoy doesnt that mean we have to test water at different areas.. in order to understand what we enjoy and excel in... so I don't see anything wrong in changing.. DAMN IT!

Anyway.. I did have the good chance to talk to different job agency...
Guess I might end back doing what I have done before... as the pay is better.. and now I need $$$ badly.. and meanwhile have to plan carefully as to reach my bigger pics... NOT GOING TO WASTE another YOUTH IN ME!!!!!!

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Mmmm.. and nxt thing I wanna to comment.. Hello... cousin R.. yeah you.. who is reading my blog.. well read your blog.. well I know I am alwys the odd one out is because of you.. :P haha who ask you alwys set the standard so high.. you knw everytime M will compare me with you.. make me till I hate you man ... I label you as my bad cousin!
And regards to why our family is like that.. is simple.. one word TRADITION!!!! Rember the rules :
T= try talking back, you get slap
R = ranting kills you.. shut your pipe!
A = Agree to everything even your dun like
D= Disobedience will get you no where
I= idoits are consider gd quality for a child
T= Ten upon ten is what you shld alwys get
I= Inspiration are not allow in the family
O= Obedient is the key to success in the family
N= Never disregard the TRADITIONAL way of living...

Understand NOW!!!
Hope it helps dude.. but anyway now we are grown up.. dun hate you and others... love you guys... and now I have decided to burn the above rules... so now it has become FREEDOM!! lol...
Ok ok thats all...
Ps: Like your blog a lot...

Oooo La la

Wow finally, CNY is over and manage to bluff through my way with latest strategic.. smile and say nothing.. it is a good way... giving people an undefine answer to their qns.. anyway glad I have gone through and fake it with flying colours..

and this CNY is also a good start.. as manage to be standing out person.. I mean in the limelight... causing a little small turbluent to my family.. well no choice its to get them to be prepared for the future... worst things are coming on their way.. muahahaha...

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I hope that I can pull through this month of Feb.. and fingercross that I get a job soon.. if not I really go crazy.. and this week D mum and dad is coming to Singapore for a short trip.. D kind of ask me to join them.. sigh.. I am reluctant to.. D comes from a very good family.. His parents are lawyer.. his sister is professor and he himself went through Harvard and even completed MBA...
Well look at me... have nothing...

Sometimes wonder what I am good at.. maybe nothing... and sometimes that is one thing that slow me down from getting what I want..is because I think too much... i lost a lot of my freedom.. and opportunities...
Now looking myself going to be a quarter century old.. I have yet to achieve my goal.. what a shit I am..

Oh gosh look at me.. ranting again.. lol so sorry..

k lah thats all loh ;)

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Guess what my same age cousin R... also have a blog.. haha.. this is the link http://www.opendiary.com/entryview.asp?authorcode=A624570&entry=20316&mode

Cool man... ;)